Self-healing & How I Did It

During the tough times in our lives, we each have a way of getting better through the hardships. Believe it or not, many people have to find their own way of doing this and what works for them. Some people follow a religious faith and their belief in God (or whatever they follow) helps them, some people people seek regular counselling by paying $180 a session and that works for them, and some people take medication or just bottle it up. Whatever works for one person doesn't guarantee to work for another individual.

Now, looking back at how intense of a year 2017 was, there were many times I lost the plot and didn't seek a life of living anymore. I know this can sound very hard to contemplate for a lot of people as you wouldn't really think that now, but it's the solid truth. I have been on doubled medication, counselling where I was belittled with beliefs that made me uncomfortable, and just being told to get over it. Clearly, many of those things weren't helping, in fact, a few of the options made me worse!

It was October when I took matters into my own hands, researching what is considered unorthodox ideas of healing one's self, mentally and emotionally, I took a leap of faith bought a few crystals that supposedly help in certain ways to an individual. Then I did what I never thought would work... I laid down and placed the crystals on my chest, closed my eyes and concentrated on breathing and a place I felt calm at. This calm place was a specific park, Anderson Park, in my hometown, somewhere I went often with my family and friends when I was younger. I pictured the tree's leaves whooshing in the wind, the ducks quacking in the nearby pond... and something came over me. I felt a new person.

It was as though I had awoken from a deep slumber and that my awareness of the world around me became super sensitive. As crazy as this sounds, something clicked in me and I felt connected to the entire world on a completely new level. I valued life and everything that happened to me, good and bad. I was thankful that I had spiraled out of control in the year because I knew where I was fitting into the spiritual world and physical world. My hatred and anger of those that have hurt me dispersed into thoughts of them (those people) being ridiculous and I felt sorry that they are living their life with an obsession of "I don't care how my actions and words affects others". I'm free. What people say about me and whether they are in my life or not is something I no longer upset myself with.

I finally believe that I am better than I was and my mentality is the most stable it has ever been since I became an official adult at 18 years old. My doctor has even noticed a significant difference in my demeanor, a positive difference! I now live my life with nothing but positive optimistic thoughts and good vibes - don't get me wrong, I still have my down days but they are nothing like they used to be. So essentially, I am daily healing myself spiritually in ways I never dreamed of. I regularly meditate and journal, I can wake up each day and say, "It's a new day and I am going to make the most of it in a way that makes me smile", and I have even been able to gain some healthy weight which I haven't been able to do (thanks Dad for the fast metabolism). Things have never looked better and my outlook makes it easier to find a solution to any problem in day to day life. Self-healing is always possible and sometimes you have to find it on your own to know what works for you xx

"Awakening means you've come home to yourself, that consciousness shifted back to its original nature" - Maria Erving